Each second compounds
My inner turmoil.
So many emotions.
So many feelings.
Like huge waves of tsunami,
Crashing onto the shores,
Of my mind, incessantly.
Happiness, excitement, confusion,
Betrayal, anger, bitterness,
Jealousy, greed, fear,
And then love...
Have you ever felt all these
At one particular moment?
I am drowning in these, Kanha
Drowning.
But the sad thing is-
I like it. I like the pain
Because it gives me an excuse
To suffer. It's satisfying
Somehow. Sadistic.
Sleep eludes me.
And emotions play around.
I welcome the pain,
That comes with it.
Somewhere from afar
I see an outline
Of someone approaching.
Unmistakable.
With a flute and peacock feathers.
Ah! There He is.
He opens His arms to me.
I turn away, tears leaking
"Go away", I tell Him.
"This is my battle"
The cool zephyr caresses.
And the wind whispers.
"I can't let you suffer"
I laugh lifelessly.
And begin to walk away.
Even though each atom within
Objects and repels,
Yet I walk away from Him...
I can hear Him call.
This pain is unbearable.
But I walk away unfazed,
And tell Him-
"I am not ready yet, kanha.
Give me time.
Time, cruel and fleeting ,
I need time to tame
My emotions and feelings,
And also myself,
I need time, Milord,
Time to digest all this,
This life and agony ...
And the satisfaction...
I have to Go this once, Kanha...
But someday I'll come back
Searching"
When I look back,
I see tears in His eyes too.
It pains me,
But I welcome the pain,
And continue on....
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Searching- A saga ✔
PoetryMany things that I've realized about this life... Many things that I've realized about myself... Many more about the society I live in... Much more about the world in general... But... Mainly about my world in particular... My world... FOR ONCE, NO...